The Words Beneath My Fingertips

This past week I had two scans: 1) of my chest and 2) of my pelvis. I had the scan in my chest because I have pulmonary nodules . I am supposed to get them checked every 6 months. At the end of June,  though, my chest started feeling really tight. I saw my pain doctor about it, and when she felt around my ribs, she felt a squishy type bump.  So she had me get a chest x-ray but nothing came up. I didn't worry about it because I knew I'd be getting this chest CT eventually. However this week I have felt like an elephant has been sitting on my chest. I can't really take in deep breaths. So I was extra glad to get that CT done! Perhaps my husband got me sick- he had a similar feeling in his chest last week. Anyway, I'm more anxious about my pelvic MRI. My last pain spell, which lasted from June 20th until July 3 really took a toll in me. This was different from my other fits of pain. It was REALLY strong, and it lasted a REALLY long time. At one point I cried. I

There's a lot I want to say but it's hard to organize my thoughts.  I'll try! It's very late as I'm typing so forgive any typos. On Pelvic Pain A few months ago (February), I made this video: In this video, I was describing my recovery from my SECOND abdominal surgery, and how I was feeling from there pain wise. At the time, I was on 2400 mg of gabapentin. But a few days before I actualy made this video, I had a TERRIBLE case of bronchitis. I had so much medicine to take that I stopped taking the Gabapentin. It made me terribly 'foggy' and I was having so much trouble participating in class discussions. I was taking the Gabapentin because  after my surgery, I had terrible referred pain- exactly opposite of my surgical area was this intense burning sensation. Gabapentin saved me! But I realized a week after stopping the Gabapentin  that  I no longer had that burning sensation! So  I stopped it for good. It made me WAY loopy. I couldn't focus,