The Words Beneath My Fingertips

November is Stomach Cancer Awareness month, so I thought I should write something about how I still deal with the effects--- 7 years later.  So, friends, here, on this blog, I am telling all of you for the first time (because I have recently been reflecting on it and only now owning up to this- I haven't even discussed with my therapist but I will)....I am almost certain I have a stomach cancer induced eating disorder. This will be VERY LONG so bear with me, and if you read it, I appreciate you! I have been working on this post for DAYS and I don't know how it's going to be perceived, so I am making myself very vulnerable to you right now. I can't really write about my self-diagnosed eating disorder without explaining again everything I endured when I was recovering from surgery. I know many of you remember my trials and tribulations of eating and all I went through, but many don't know because I have recently met you, so here is my story. I think ...

I haven't written an update post in FOREVER. I've just had no time. Between school work, studying for Comps and more school work and applying for jobs...yeah. Now that school work is dwindling, my comps are over (and I passed!), I can write this long overdue blog about my GD esophagus.Not NF related, sure, but I am perpetually recovering from stomach cancer surgery, so yeah. Anyway, I've had problem swallowing since maybe February. Well, ha, I've had problems swallowing since my damn cancer surgery, but it got worse. So did my heartburn. I was worried. So I had an endoscopy in the beginning of March. This photo below is BASICALLY what I had done in 2009- after part of my stomach/esophagus/GE junction were removed, they fundoplicated it back together: It's not exactly like this because in this photo, the IN TACT stomach was wrapped against an IN TACT junction/esophagus. They took what was left of my stomach and wrapped it around what was left of my esophagu...