The Words Beneath My Fingertips

I don't know if it affects anything or not but I changed my username/url. doing my best to really gear this toward NF so hoooopefully people with NF can find this. And as an update to my previous blog, I was in pretty bad pain most of the day, and it got worse once i got home. Even though tylenol did nothing for me all day long, it's finally working now and my life is back.  FOR NOW. so if it's not nerve pain, it's this pain. thus is my life.

Holy shit. The only one way to describe what I went through last night is DISTRESS. So, I know you know I have nerve tumors, blah blah blah. I keep so much inside of me that I really don't know what I post, what I don't. I know I talk a LOT about my pain in this blog. Such is my life! I don't know if I've written this or not, but anyway, the thing with nerve pain is that when I am in this pain, I can't imagine what it's like NOT being in pain. But when I'm not in pain, I can't imagine the pain. It's THAT bad. Anyway, cramps are a different story. Sometimes it's not that terrible. Usually it's pretty bad the first 2 days, and it gets better. Usually I just take a couple of tylenol, have a heating pad and that takes care of it. Sometimes I wake up in a lot of pain and I either writhe and cry for about an hour or so, and go to sleep or I'll do what I just mentioned after taking tylenol, sometimes turning on my heating pad

I want to do more reading. I haven't read for fun in years. Thus begins my reading challenge. I posted this on my Facebook page, but I'll post here too. On one of my statuses, I asked my FB friends for their"must read" opinion. WELL, just because I have listed only these books here it doesn't mean I won't go to the library and get what they suggested... Anyway I plan to read as many of these books as possible, not in the order listed here, but I'll read a fiction, and then a non fiction and then a history (while studying for comps and some Chinese in between or at the same time... maybe...yeah) Books: Fiction: 1- Troilus and Criseyde and Selected Short Poems- Geoffrey Chaucer (my <3 and soul) 2- The Phantom of the Opera= Gaston Leroux 3- Kinshu: Autumn Brocade- Teru Miyamoto 4- Snow Flower and the Secret FAn- Lisa See (I might have read it but don't remember) 5- Death and the Penguin- Andrey Kurkov 6- Evolution, Me and other Freaks o