The Words Beneath My Fingertips

In case you are interested, I posted an entry following up from my blog in OCTOBER regarding NF's effect on my pregnancy. It is here . This entry is being dedicated to my 6th month as a MOM. For those who have spoken to me in the past about having kids, many of you know that I didn't think I wanted to have biological children. I thought about this for two main reasons: 1. I have NF 2. I had CANCER. I didn't think my body could be healthy enough. I was afraid to birth a genetic mutant like myself. I was just afraid of everything. Well, I changed my mind. And I did so for several reasons but the main reason was that I really wanted to have the experience of being pregnant and having a child of my own. Other reasons included: despite my pain, despite my cancer history, I still have a great life. If I  have a great life, my child would have a great life. I'm not sorry to be alive, so why would my child if he happens to have NF? (or any other condition). His life w...

I haven't written an update post in FOREVER. I've just had no time. Between school work, studying for Comps and more school work and applying for jobs...yeah. Now that school work is dwindling, my comps are over (and I passed!), I can write this long overdue blog about my GD esophagus.Not NF related, sure, but I am perpetually recovering from stomach cancer surgery, so yeah. Anyway, I've had problem swallowing since maybe February. Well, ha, I've had problems swallowing since my damn cancer surgery, but it got worse. So did my heartburn. I was worried. So I had an endoscopy in the beginning of March. This photo below is BASICALLY what I had done in 2009- after part of my stomach/esophagus/GE junction were removed, they fundoplicated it back together: It's not exactly like this because in this photo, the IN TACT stomach was wrapped against an IN TACT junction/esophagus. They took what was left of my stomach and wrapped it around what was left of my esophagu...