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I feel so...defeated

Whatever's going on with my nerves- whether its truly damage to the ilio inguinal nerves that I described in this entry, or if a new NF tumor is eating its way through me like a termite, is really starting to dampen my hopes of EVER getting better. I really thought my surgery to remove that other NF tumor was going to help, when in fact, it might have made things worse (since abdominal surgeries are often a cause of ilio inguinal nerve damage). My worst fear might come true: having to take my comprehensive examination in March while dealing with a bad pain spell. I don't know what to do! Blahh. Just wanted to vent.

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